Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Baseball...

Well here we are, sitting on edge not really knowing where we are going for this season. This time of year is a bit crazy for many in the baseball world. Many friends of ours are in our same position, anxiously awaiting our husbands to come home to see if today is the day we will know. The Organization owns us, they tell us where we will go and when. Its a bit crazy, we have 2 cities (we think) in mind of where we are going. Well now more news as of today... we basically have no idea and just have to wait it out til Thursday, we think and hope. Yes, its tough especially when you have kids in tow. And most of all... even harder to swallow because Casey has done as well as he has this spring!

A bit overwhelmed having to turn in my United Stated Anti-Doping Where about form today the deadline (hard to tell them an address where we are going to be the next 3 months without knowing what state we are even going to be in), trying to figure out if we book flights, trying to line up housing at both places, looking at schedules of teams and comparing, training, moving, shipping, driving, and etc. Lots going through my head and trying not to overwhelm Casey, he has enough on his mind!

I read Betsy Tucker's journal about her precious daughter Audra! The Lord used her to speak to me today and many times throughout their journey! She wrote about enjoying the moment, enjoying every breath that Audra takes, being full of joy admiring Audra's chest move up and down, and graciously enjoying each and every God given moment we have. Amen! Tears began to fall off my cheeks, the Lord spoke, just enjoy! This was a gut check for me. Lord, may we just enjoy this moment. Betsy always writes, "Let go, Let God!" Amen.

In all the uncertainties of this world and worries little and big. God take them and let us enjoy each moment!

Watching Oprah today, seeing Michael J Fox speaking of his battle with Parkinson's. He spoke of how he enjoys every minute and how everything for him might be his last! I thought to myself, "Ok, Lord I got it!" Let go, Let God.


As my heart aches and is filled with prayers for Audra, and Micheal. Our worry and wonders are so so so tiny compared to those of Audra's and Micheal's. I thought of the pictures of Audra playing softball and my photo shoot with Micheal a couple of years ago. We hold them up in prayer along with many others battling horrible diseases. And they are a reminder to enjoy the moment! Every moment is a gift, a God given gift!

My heart aches too, for Casey working so hard this off season, doing so well this spring (he's been awesome!) but yet its as though he is invisible to the Organization. He deserves it.

But again I am reminded, Let go, Let God. We can only find peace in Him. We can't try to figure out the why's? Or understand them? Obviously its more than numbers and more than doing well. But what we do know and have faith in is that our Lord has his perfect plan for us and that is it. I know it still can be frustrating, I don't know how Casey handles it so well? I text Casey today telling him God has a mountain top for him somewhere with lakes full of big o' bass! But today the Lord spoke for sure, Let go, Let God!

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15 comments:

Ashley Barden said...

Wow, i feel ya...what a great blog, brought tears to my eyes and really made me step back..take a deep breath and enjoy what we have :) thank you.

The Finch's said...

Hey Jennie,
Thanks so much for your encouragement. Just letting God lead and knowing He has the ultimate perfect plan is what we need to continue to be thinking and living out. God has a plan for you and Casey and Ace. Just remember that and continually seek after the Lord first in all that you do. You are a great example Jennie and letting God's light shine through you. =) God is in control and I have to remember that as well. Enjoy what God is teaching you right now.

Rake said...

God Bless, Good luck and Good fortune wherever you end up.

Lance, Jamie, LJ & Rookie said...

What a wonderful entry - we are in the same place - supposed to be breaking camp, heading out to exhibition, and we don't know either. praying for you as you await the news, too - that we'll all still notice the good in every moment, laugh when we can and smile because we're blessed. Pulling for y'all.

jcleads said...

Awesome reminder, and what I needed to hear today. I know God is good, and sometimes it is so hard to really let go and let God just be God. It is also so hard to enjoy where we are at during tough times. Thank you for the refreshing reminder to cherish each moment. I am trying to do this with my mom in the hospital bed frustrated and feeling rotten. THere are so many things to be thankful for. I am encouraged by you.

AJ and Katie Shappi said...

Jennie,
Thank you for your transparency! I totally understand where you guys are coming from! We too are trying to trust God's will right now. We will be praying for you this week!

Elizabeth said...

Can't remember whether we actually ever met when Scott played, or I just know you through our little D-Backs group. :)

This really takes me back to our baseball days and reminded me to be grateful for the consistency we have in our post-baseball life. It's ironic, but sometimes I actually miss the days of uncertainty we had in baseball. It FORCED us to rely upon the Lord in a way that you only understand when the path isn't laid out. That's hard to do when life becomes more settled.

Hope it all turns out well for you guys. Happy moving!

Brianna said...

jen this really moved me. i'm praying for you and your family! you have the right outlook and i know everything will turn out just fine and the way it is ultimately supposed to be. give casey my love!

Alysa said...

Great perspective, thanks for sharing that! I know how hard it is at this time of year (and really all throughout baseball life), but letting go is really the best and only thing you can do :)

kkp1220 said...

Good Luck this season wherever Casey is. I can't imagine how difficult it must be to manage your crazy lives and schedules.
If you are ever in New York, let us know, we can let the kids play;-)

Nicole said...

What a stong lady you are to stand behind your husband like that. I'm sure the not knowing is just awful. I've said a prayer for your family. I sure would love for you to come to Arlington though!

Kelly said...

I will be praying for you all this year. I know that Casey will be somewhere. He is a great player and some team will pick him up!!!! Hang in there sweetie

SoftballRocks! said...

Yes, Jennie God does things like that all the time people just don't take the time to notice them. I am a pitcher too I throw 61mph and without God I would be nowhere near this point. He has lead me and put people in my life to help me and one of those people is YOU!
Thanks Jennie!

George said...

Best wishes to both you and Casey. Remember the lilies of the field. When I am wondering what will happen, and worrying about tomorrow I take comfort in Matthew chapter six, verses 25 through 34.

May God bless you both.

Jennie Finch said...

Thank you all for your love and most importantly your prayers! Thanks for your encouraging words! Letting go, Letting God!
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