Well here we are, sitting on edge not really knowing where we are going for this season. This time of year is a bit crazy for many in the baseball world. Many friends of ours are in our same position, anxiously awaiting our husbands to come home to see if today is the day we will know. The Organization owns us, they tell us where we will go and when. Its a bit crazy, we have 2 cities (we think) in mind of where we are going. Well now more news as of today... we basically have no idea and just have to wait it out til Thursday, we think and hope. Yes, its tough especially when you have kids in tow. And most of all... even harder to swallow because Casey has done as well as he has this spring!
A bit overwhelmed having to turn in my United Stated Anti-Doping Where about form today the deadline (hard to tell them an address where we are going to be the next 3 months without knowing what state we are even going to be in), trying to figure out if we book flights, trying to line up housing at both places, looking at schedules of teams and comparing, training, moving, shipping, driving, and etc. Lots going through my head and trying not to overwhelm Casey, he has enough on his mind!
I read Betsy Tucker's journal about her precious daughter Audra! The Lord used her to speak to me today and many times throughout their journey! She wrote about enjoying the moment, enjoying every breath that Audra takes, being full of joy admiring Audra's chest move up and down, and graciously enjoying each and every God given moment we have. Amen! Tears began to fall off my cheeks, the Lord spoke, just enjoy! This was a gut check for me. Lord, may we just enjoy this moment. Betsy always writes, "Let go, Let God!" Amen.
In all the uncertainties of this world and worries little and big. God take them and let us enjoy each moment!
Watching Oprah today, seeing Michael J Fox speaking of his battle with Parkinson's. He spoke of how he enjoys every minute and how everything for him might be his last! I thought to myself, "Ok, Lord I got it!" Let go, Let God.
As my heart aches and is filled with prayers for Audra, and Micheal. Our worry and wonders are so so so tiny compared to those of Audra's and Micheal's. I thought of the pictures of Audra playing softball and my photo shoot with Micheal a couple of years ago. We hold them up in prayer along with many others battling horrible diseases. And they are a reminder to enjoy the moment! Every moment is a gift, a God given gift!
My heart aches too, for Casey working so hard this off season, doing so well this spring (he's been awesome!) but yet its as though he is invisible to the Organization. He deserves it.
But again I am reminded, Let go, Let God. We can only find peace in Him. We can't try to figure out the why's? Or understand them? Obviously its more than numbers and more than doing well. But what we do know and have faith in is that our Lord has his perfect plan for us and that is it. I know it still can be frustrating, I don't know how Casey handles it so well? I text Casey today telling him God has a mountain top for him somewhere with lakes full of big o' bass! But today the Lord spoke for sure, Let go, Let God!